Thank you for the warm welcome Prairyearth,

I don't really have much more to say about that particular dream at the moment, but I do want to say this: That over the last year as I've started to write my dreams down more, they seem to be progressively leading me somewhere. It makes me feel that there is so much to experience in this world that I am missing and that through my dreams the unknown of the world is trying to seek me somehow. I guess that's the reason why I wrote what I did earlier this morning, because in a way I'm just trying to reach back out and see if there is a reply.

As for my heritage, I am a first generation Canadian born Chinese, and English is my first language. My parents are from Hong Kong and are Christians, and I was raised in a community of other Chinese families such as myself that went to church regularly. I grew up in Toronto and Vancouver and so I was exposed to many other cultures. In that way, I always saw there was something worthwhile in every culture and not just my own. As I got older I rejected Christianity, and over the years have adopted an eclectic spirituality and believe there is something to be learn in everything. Over the years I've come across many spiritual teachings among my favorites are taoism and zen.

I always felt that life was more complex than going to heaven or hell after you die, and feel connected to all living things; though I admit there is a lot of socially conditioned fear in me also. It doesn't make sense to me why the technology exists (or almost does) where everyone can be sufficiently fed and clothed and housed, yet instead we live in a world where some have to struggle and others oppress. I am not one to blame, however for I believe things are what they are, and there is hope even in devastation. I see humanities' potential as greater than most can imagine, and believe the extent of the reach of our lives will not be contained to a single planet nor a single dimension either.

I am a student, in multiple aspects. I'm in college at the moment, studying psychology and English; and at the same time I'm a student of life, of myself and of the spirit. I hope I'm at the right place, and look forward to interacting more with all of you.

Thank you.

Alan

Ahhhh, yes, you have awakened to the path, whilst many others sleep.

Will you walk beside us on the road for a time, so that we might exchange a dialogue of "the dream?"

I, and I'm certain many others here, do not think you crazy, nor on drugs. We have among us many LD's.

Opinion varies regarding dream notes or journals, some choose to keep records, some do not, it is personal preference. I do choose to keep dream notes/journals, as I have found going back through time, these dreams weave themselves in and out of our lives, and are a most important tool.

Through history, Christianity stripped away dreamtime from the people. How unfortunate. To this day, there are people who fear to admit they dream.

As for your dream, I will share some thoughts with you and would hope others might also share from their perspective. There are many elements and symbols to work with. It's too bad you could not remember the name given, but don't despair, you can ask "spirit" to dream this again...ask what is the name that was said? Also, you are standing on solid ground, and feel warmth. When you stated, "Murder without dissection is a waste," as I see it, that would be true. If one sort of reverses this thought around, it might benefit to dissect the murder and probe for what caused this to happen. Also, there is dissection in autopsies that needs to be addressed..in other words, if we don't find out what is behind Murders and Genocides, what the root cause is, then it is a total waste of future generations life, as we can not fix what we do not know about, therefore different types of dissection is necessary or life was wasted. Everyone has a story to tell, and murder is a story which has secrets to give up.

Now who sounds crazy? smiling...

I feel you have the right place, or I might be dreaming.....
Blessings,
Prairy

Hello again,

I would be happy to walk with you all on this road for a time; and I hope to learn and share and grow and laugh along also!

I also find my dreams often have complex histories in them, with memories which exist that are not of this worldly existence. That people from real life find their way into my dreams and coexist with beings that may not necessarily be 'real', has contributed to a strong feeling that the dream state is just as significant as reality.

I am seeking out "spirit", and desire to communicate. I remember the name was a common name, and foolishly I put it in the back of my head during the dream because I believed it was too simple to be forgotten.

Btw, do you find it strange that an entire website address was communicated to me in a dream? Not in a bad way of course, just very unusual.

No. Nothing is strange in the land of OZ.
Prairy

Xulferdica: Welcome.

It Has Been A While Since I Have Seen A Young One With Such Clarity. You Are On The Right Path: Pay No Attention To The FICTIONS: They Are There LEGAL LUNATICS. It Is Not All In Your Head: And You Are Not Crazy: Take Your Time: Understand The Perspective Of What We Are "ALLOWED" To Share Past The CENSORS: It Is All Good: In One Way Or Another: We Are All The Children Of The Creator....Keep Smiling...Moon.

well, hello again, to both the new and those that haven't left!

i figured i'd post here, seeing as i feel drawn to type (once again in the early hours before sunrise), and since i haven't been very active in typing much.

as some already know somethings about me, from the old site, i figure i should post some bio material. (i promise it's not toxic)

i'm currently on disability (i prefer saying i'm retired though) and have been for the last 2.5 years, after a 3 year wait upon first applying. The appeal process was interesting, especially when i found out that the local hospitals never fully released my medical history which included visits to the hospital on at least 4 occasions (possibly 5) for stitches, for head and facial injuries sustained thru different accidents. There had also been a couple of instances where i had my "bell rung" as well, but never went to the hospital. i was between 10 to 16 years old when these injuries occurred, and three of them happening when i was 16.

at 17 my dependance on the social welfare system began, and carried on for several years on and off. I also attempted school, from finishing high school, to college and university, but never completed any of them. During that time i did have some work, and also encountered being homeless on a couple of occasions. (interestingly enough, i've come to learn that head injuries is quite common amongst people who find themselves on the street)

i've been living where i live pretty much since 2002. I first got running water about 1.5 years ago, and just got hot water around mid december, an xmas gift i will probably never forget. the fruits of hot water is interesting, yet my bathroom is still a work in progress. the nicest thing so far has been the fact that i no longer have a mold problem in my house, something that was very hard on me for nearly 7 years, plus with the new insulation and windows my house stays quite warm now. My dog on the other hand hasn't been too pleased, since it gets far too hot for him and he has to stay outside a lot more than he used to, plus he lost his bedroom since i decided to open up the place.

since i started renovating back in late july last year, i haven't really engaged myself in much. Mostly observing some habitual behavioral patterns, and trying to get a grip on them. I haven't done much reading, which i miss. i hope to get back into it though, it just seems that i am taking forever to finish reading The Story of Chinese Zen, by Master Nan Huai Chin. Usually i end up realizing i need to do more breath work (which should be easier now the mold is gone, but it is very dusty in here now and i'm far from being a guy that keeps his house clean) and work that in with my contemplation practices.

anyways, i've rambled on enough.

Moon, i'm sorry i never call, i just don't like talking on the phone. I have seen the conference calling thing too, but my anxiety always gets the best of me. i hope one day to no longer be this way but with the issues i'm dealing with currently (figuring out the head injury stuff) my issue with talking on the phone seems less of a concern than the rest.

what matters right now is my heart is healing and growing, at least in a way that i can feel it. Plus i'm not yelling online as much! Plus plus i'm making less mistakes in my typing, and am getting better at recognizing the inconsistencies in my speaking, as i am with my typing. i will always be thankful to you for pointing that out.

take care
and breath well all.
oh, p.s. the picture link is still up with updates
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Such A Higher Gift For The Revealing Of The Discovery Made That Proves A Genocide Has Occurred: Now Where Did The Irish Masonic Templar's Knights Of The Golden Circle Of My Crown Inheritant: Disappear?.........Moon.

i have no idea where they "disappeared" , aside from the story from the catholic church. all i've heard is that they still exist, and i was told that by a member of the order of the eastern star.

all i really know is that i found the damn book 10 years ago or so, and wondered myself.

Trying this one more time. Forumer server 4 has been working on glitches in the system and we have been down for a few days. Let's see if it works now.

Hellooo greentreee,

As most peeps have observed, this old woman has been slow to reply as of late. It's good to hear from you and your progress report. It's fantastic you now have warm water. I took a look at the pics you took and your place has come a long way from it's beginnings.

I also noticed a kaleidoscope type picture, are you working on mandalas? they are stunning pictures and patterns.

As for reading some of the ancient wisdoms, such as Zen, I've read and read and read, books and wisdoms from Masters and teachers from all around the globe, and have come to a realization, at least for me, most are teaching the same things, just through different examples. It seems that the truth's are simple rather than complicated. This is why it would have been so awesome for original cultures to have been able to keep their own stories and wisdoms to pass down to future generations, however, these stories and wisdoms have been ripped from the heart of many peoples cultures, making it a difficult road for those of us who had their own cultural stories slayed...this is why so many of us search for our own ancestors stories, can't find them, so must settle for the wisdoms brought down from other cultures. Yet often these stories and wisdoms are in an unfamiliar setting and language making it difficult to absorb at times.

Many Blessings be to You my friend,
Prairy

hi, it's ok regarding the timeline for reply. lately i'm checking my email once a week. I was wondering why the site was closed for a bit too, i thought it vanished again.

i'm glad you like the pics, i got a new camera before i went cuba, and i'm slowly getting into a new hobby. The house renovations feel like its taking forever, but i'm not really in a hurry now, plus the tear down part took it's toll on my body, i find myself limping more often that i ever wished to at this point.

the kaleidoscope pics where just me playing with the head shot of myself with a program. i'm not that sophisticated to indulge in mandala creations, i just enjoy toying around with digital photography, since i can't draw to save my life.

i understand and agree with what you are saying with regards to wisdom teachings of the past, as well as, the issues regarding colonialism. I know i find it somewhat difficult to get some of the metaphors in buddhism when i read them in particular when plants and animals are mentioned, since i have no subjective experience with them. however, that doesn't mean i may not come to an understanding later, every once in a while i'll have a break through from contemplation. it might take me another 10 years to really get a grip on some things in particular the Mind Only (Consciousness Only) school, for example.

anyways, nice to hear from you.
take care
Siempre Hay Esperanza
(great instrumental on Love Is Stronger Than Pride by Sade)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whBXaWYjFdY